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// a lost. n another lost.

a big cut.
an internal injury tht cuts across my heart..
i can only let time heal my wounds :((
does anybody ever understand?
does anybody ever understand me?
or i should say im just too selfish to keep everything to me.
and therefore it results in nobody really understands me?
i really dont kno.
i feel so shit.
a big loser.
i hate myselff tht much cause i still cant take it as a fact tht i brought this situation upon myself.
this trouble.
and all e tiredness ive brought to u.
im falling..
and its just another step backwards.
pls rain !!
so when i cant hold back my tears anytime.
nobody will kno ive cried.
i thought u would be more undersatnding towards my situation now.
tht 24 hrs is totally not enough for to handle everything in terms of physical n mental..
i kno recently i have been hopelessly reaching out for YOU.
and i think i might not be good enough for u.
perhaps a potential trouble maker.
e earth is round, estimated.
and i want it perhaps square, or rectangle/triangular.
broken- and i think somehow ure gonna end it.
anyway, anytime.
ive got to be well prepared.
for this serious lost.
u think i can cause is not easy as said.
i cannot afford to, but do i seem to have a choice?
guessed im really never myself for this whole chapter.
sometimes, i dont understand things tht ppl do.
and why insignificant things matter.
i've yet to have e capacity to deal with e departure of her.
aanybody, tell me wht to do-

// follow ur instincts. believe in GOD.

impossible is nothing. do not admit defeat;
jasmin // 7:34:00 PM