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// call me a loser-
BIG FAT SIGH-
i cried. but it doesn matter, at all.
cant even handle such small n insignificant things.
a person with no leadership qualities.
just plainly selfish abt succeeding.
WHT AM I DOING?
i am nonsensical.
i am complacent.
i am unreasonable.
i am naive.
afterall, call me a loser.
BIG LOSER.
i hate maself either.
am not multi-talented.
cause i cant evn cope with evrythng.
i TOTALLY hate maself.
for being such a lousy player. a lousy person.
indeed, i am a lousy person.
i am feeling so shitified now.
damn- lousyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
sry girls, but i donno if evry of u gets ta read this.
i am in consideration of leaving.
for almost 4 years, i have achieved NOTHING.
i am no longer e old me.
i am really sorry.
i may not be with u ppl for nxt yr's zonal competitions.
// follow ur instincts. believe in GOD.
impossible is nothing. do not admit defeat;
jasmin // 9:30:00 AM
