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// miserys
im asking you now.
IS MONEY RALLY THT IMPT !
why run awae frm the fact.
you enjoy being a coward?
don call urself a man then.
you brought trouble ta us- 3 lives.
cause us ta live in fear evrydae.
we don owe you anythng alright.
i jus wished ive nrv exist at all. os perhaps in shldn have appeared right frm the start.
so i don have ta worry so much evrydae, suffering frm slpless nights.
wht has mom owe you.
i stand there helplessly.
seeing her eyes so filled with tears.
i rally donno, will there be any tmrs waiting for me.
ive still alot of dreams waiting for me ta be fulfilled.
so many thngs, for me ta achieve.
yet now, it all seems like a nightmare.
ma results got me depressed enuf.
and evrydae aft sch, i go ta a place which i don feel like gng ta.
a hme with no sense of belonging.
at first you rally got me worried.
i was thinking if ure limping with one leg on e streets begging for money.
now, hatred is wht i feel towards u.
you deserve ta starve la.
im not evil.
but you cause trouble ta us esp mom.
wont you ask ur conscious, IS IT FAIR TA MOM?
don you have btr resolutions rather than gng ta those big bullys.
they aren inhuman u see.
did you eat ur med or you are on diet.
ure are totally brainless.
have u got no eduacation or wht.
i believe, in those daes an O lvl cert is good enuf.
compared ta those handicapped, aren't you much much mre fortunate.
somebody, jus take awae all ma troubles.
i had enough of these.oh pls-
// follow ur instincts. believe in GOD.
impossible is nothing. do not admit defeat;
jasmin // 8:59:00 AM
