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// boohoo.
a week's gonna be ovr soon.
totally, this week i didn touched any of ma hmwrk.
i SHOULD sae tuition motivates me alil LA.
okayys.
ive alot of thngs accumulating inside me, and i donno whe shld i start.
i choose the kind of life i wanna live.
and thou friends play an important role in ma life, i think they still cant manipulate me.
friends- use and abuse !
blame me with all you want, cause u cant help feeling so emotionally.
pple like me can get so indecisive, but i think e final decision still lies with you.
and i mean you, URSELF !
i may be there when u needed me, ta lend u a listening ear and a shoulder ta cry on.
but i'll nvr forget e times u put me in such a difficult position.
indirectly insulting me, fine !
im not trying ta sae its retribuition now.
standing as a neutral party, i kno anythng evrythng.
so SHUT UP if you don kno.
im not pissed, but im rather disappointed in you.
apologies, i think its difficult for us ta go back ta the past anymre.
and i sincerely wish you all the best !
i kno im not a gd friend, but wht ta do !
stab me with a knife right at ma heart.
i cant see ma strengths, neither can i find it.
evrythng seems so hard for me ta achieve.
and ohh ya ! tht match with sin chong on tues.
yijie, thanks for laughing right in front of me.
and i mean THANK YOU.
i kno i cant be compared ta you in terms of SIZE.
i admit tht match was vry critical for us, but at least i kno i was given a chance ta prove ive e ability ta score.
wht abt you.
did u EVENTUALLY took off ur warm up tee.
i jus hesitated gng towards u and admit im a monkey.
THANKS anw, i repeat.
wed night i was staying at che kok's hse.
damn funny ! i was laughing till i rolled on e floor.
julie was uber funny.
she played too much of harvest moon.
evn watching a match, she said only a farmer who needs a cow will marry janice.
LOL !
we slpt at four am and poor che kok had ta entertain her aft four !
time rally past vry fast ytd.
tdy morn had trng.
ma alarm didn ring ! ma alarm is alive if u donno.
i thought i cld hear her sing 40 kinds of sadness tdy morn ! grr.
i woke up at 645 LA.
then i managed ta rush evrythng in time.
and met ma braces BIG baby !
she smelt extremly nice tdy cans.
i was smelling her thru out e whole bus ride ta knc.
smelling her thru out e whole trng.
and hugged her lik a kuala bear !
we changed socks and i wore for her her right shoe.
i jus love ma wife :)
tdy's plan- hmmms.
shld i go and stae ovr at yuna's hse tonight.
don tell u ma decision.
BYE !
// follow ur instincts. believe in GOD.
impossible is nothing. do not admit defeat;
jasmin // 2:34:00 PM
