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// & i still miss someone..i got frequently questioned by others if i've forgotten about her, i replied yes..then they went on asking if i'm serious, tht i totally feel numb towards her..all these were jus excuses. & i had t pretend not t think about you.not telling my friends the thngs tht were botherg me, & saying tht it was nothing, when all they wanted was t share my troubles.but now knoing tht why i had t do all these was only t make myself a stronger person..i'm sorry baby, but i've really tried t let you go of you.till today, it's our second anniversary.i'm all alone at hme..i swear, it feels as tho we've jus broke up.or perhaps, i'm feeling worst than tht.i'm hurtg real bad deep down inside..maybe tonight the only thng t do, is t cry myself t sleep.it's hard t deal w the pain of losing you everywhe i go.it's hard t force tht smile when i see our old friends.but.. i'm dng it.i kno i'm demandg & selfish, judging this situation frm my perspective.nobody is t blame.but all i'm askg for is t hav you w me on this special occassion.i'm really sorry beanie, happy anniversary. :)i remember.."one thng tht i do kno is tht i don't want the day t end whenever i'm w you. and..i'll never leave you."it's part of our past, worth rememberg.
// follow ur instincts. believe in GOD.
impossible is nothing. do not admit defeat;
jasmin // 12:44:00 AM
